Messy Life...

There have been too many things in my mind lately.. the things that should be done, the shouldn’ts, the things that I can’t shake off my mind, the things that make me happy n sad, the things that I miss so badly..

Things happen for reasons.. I kinda believe in this saying now.. what used to be too hard for me to comprehend have actually started to tell one by one.. I miss some of my pasts yet I don’t wanna turn back time.. I kinda like the world I’m living in at this moment yet I keep comparing the past and the present..

Whenever I talk, wherever I go, whomever I meet.. I keep wondering why things can be that different in two places.. the things they ask, the things they’re interested in, the things they enjoy, the personality.. even trivial remarks they pass to me are so different.. just one question, why?

U may see me smile and laugh but I really hate myself for endlessly comparing my life in denmark to what I’m having right now.. u may not hear me say this in reality but I really miss everything abt it.. u may think I’m such a freak who doesn’t know how to get over but the thing is, what remains in mind is always much more beautiful than what’s happening right before my very eyes..

Every so often, I even laze about and lose the direction of what I’m supposed to do.. Monday to Friday, morning to evening, I seem to have plenty of time yet I find myself so lack of time.. I’ve spent half of this semester worrying about my passport which is expiring soon yet the indo embassy doesn’t allow me to renew, I go back and forth trying to convince them and do whatever it takes.. how can I not miss denmark? and I’m so sick of sitting in front of my laptop making drawings using solidworks, even worse, when I have to edit again and again once I show them to the supervisor.. I feel that everything I try to solve lately is just trivial matters that have been deliberately made complicated for no reasons.. besides, I feel that I’m totally back in the place where people seem to be having a thought that the world just revolves around them.. in other words, they think they’re always the main interests of the topic on the table.. u think how can I not hate it?

Well, this is what happens when people mix two worlds in one life.. we just can’t have both.. and for once, I feel that my life has been pretty messy…

I’m loving this blog.. I feel relieved after writing this.. =P

Anyways, it was such a great experience to freelance as an interpreter in Batam.. stayed in a decent resort, ate decent foods that we've been craving for.. and nice outing too! =P

Holiday Inn Batam Resort and Delima Seafood..

Edina, me, Patrick, Erick

Catching up on weekends

Gathering + Dinner + LS & SM Birthday Celebration

Ciao...