Time for goodbyes...

To tell the truth, I never thought it would be this sad.. I focused so much on how sad it would be to throw myself back to my old life.. I never thought of how sad it would be let go the people, the place and the feeling of possession.. I failed to think of that…

It was only at Hui Jeong's bday party and Nic's farewell dinner that I came to realize it.. that was our jokes which were meant to be funny but turned out making nic's eyes teary that made my mind wandered to some thoughts later on.. going back to old life being put aside, sadder is to leave what is here right here right now.. the feeling to know that this place will no longer be the same place at the second u leave.. the people will no longer lead the same life as that when u know them.. even if u step back to this city again one day, u know u will never get the same kind of feeling anymore… this is only for once.. and that's what makes it sad the most..

Maybe I don't make the bestest friendships ever, but to have some people who try to get to know me more without any prior judgment.. and simply happily make dinner together with me and cheer me up without them realizing it, that's what makes my days.. Maybe biking around the city isn't as cool as driving a car, but I truly enjoy the experience of listening to my ipod, breathing fresh air at the same time.. Maybe I don't act as I always used to act, but that, I would say, is one of the most enjoyable things to be done.. So, this memory is precious to me..

Six years ago, even though I did not cry at that time.. there was one saddest farewell in my life.. and when that feeling seems to rush back again.. I know, this is going to be something that I should overcome with grief at the end of the day..

Starting all over again, again, maybe?

Dinner on the other day... before Ling, the girl from China left..Hui Jeong's Birthday Dinner...

Nic's Farewell.. Nic's picture..

Tomorrow will be emel's and my turn.. Till then.. Ciao..

Alcohol Allergy...

My doctor will definitely have a smirk on his face if I tell him what happened.. first, I’m pissed off, how on earth could I have all this allergy stuff? How, how? I had alcohol allergy which never happened before.. causing terrible itch and red lumps all over my skin.. remember how good danish welfare system I said before? Well, I take that back.. I mean, it’s good to have a health insurance, et cetera, but hello…. having to wait for 3 days to see a doctor? that’s just insane.. I thought I was gonna die first bcos of the itchiness before I saw him… or, I would have cured by then.. for the love of god, all I needed was just an injection, how could it be that difficult? But o well, it's true - there’s no such thing as a free lunch..

I really had it hard this time.. I‘ve promised to stop drinking and eating all those forbidden stuffs.. thought of asking my dad abt what to do.. but then I held back considering he’d be suspicious about the amount of alcohol I took.. I mean, seriously, I really did drink just a little.. those who know me know how low my alcohol tolerance is.. fiuhhhh..

Btw, I’ve never observed this kinda thing, or maybe more like, it never really happened before.. it’s amazing to see people happily smiling and greeting u a lovely “good morning” in the kitchen making breakfast.. strangers smiling at u on the streets.. a good hug after not meeting for a few days.. in my dorm in nus, whenever I walk in the hallway and bump into people, more often than not, they’d pretend that they don’t see me.. but in here, people greet me and wish me a nice day.. the point is, I’m always somewhat dragged into a good mood, how can I not be anyway?

Actually, it’s not that hard to be a happier person after all… errrmm... hang on… I’m rather dubious if I can say the same thing 2 months from now.. u know, people change from time to time, depending on the situation they’re living in.. =P

“Don’t bother explaining coz the person who trusts you don’t need it and the person who dislikes you won’t believe it anyway,… right?” --> read this from Jacq’s blog.. it’s so true.. yet can be wrong I must say.. have u ever been in a situation when u feel that all u need is just an explanation? if u haven’t, well, at least I think i have =P

Teknisk Kollegium, my dormitory (back view)

(front view)

Surrounded by a huge park and beautiful view

Jan The Man, Chairman of the Larmer, the bar in Teknisk Kollegium

Ciao

Dead Poets Society...

Keating: Just when u think u know something, u have to look at it in another way. Even though it may seem silly or wrong, u must try! Now, when u read, don't just consider what the author thinks. Consider what u think. Boys, u must strive to find ur own voice. Because the longer u wait to begin, the less likely u are to find it at all. Thoreau said, "most men lead lives of quiet desperation". Don't be resigned to that. Break out! Don't just walk off the edge like lemmings. Look around u"

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Keating: "I sound my barbaric yawp over the rooftops of the world…"
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Keating: "There it is, You see, u have a barbarian in u, after all.." .
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Keating: Yes, we know that. All right. Now, I didn't bring them up here to ridicule them. I brought them up here to illustrate the point of conformity: the difficulty in maintaining ur own beliefs in the face of others. Now, those of u… I see the look in ur eyes, "I would've walked differently." Well, ask urselves why u're clapping. Now, we all have a great need of acceptance. But u must trust that ur belief is unique, ur own, even though others may think they're odd or unpopular, even though the herd may go, "that's baaaad..". Robert Frost said, "Two roads diverged in a wood and I, I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference." Now, I want u to find ur own walk right now. Your own way of striding, pacing. Any direction. Anything u want. Whether it's proud, whether it's silly, anything. Gentlemen, the courtyard is yours.

I immediately feel in love with the movie.. it expressed the idea of "Carpe Diem" which also what I first got to hear about one year ago in a talk.. an Academy Award winning film in 1989.. i say, u should watch it..!

Pictures as of late...

We've been having heavy dinners, trying out some recipes from internet bcos the weather's not been so friendly recently, always raining.. which makes it difficult to go outside to hang out.. =P

Spaghetti Carbonara - Fried Rice - Prawn Salad - Apple Pie

Besides, andreas is leaving on monday.. it's pretty sad and did i mention? he's a very nice friend and he's my bike angel.. =P always helping me with my bike.. anyway, we had a dinner and basketball game for the last time in Teknisk together.. quite a fun game, i teamed up with andreas, jun teamed up with jeong.. by the by, we've come to this gloomy time where everybody has to leave.. in fact, most of my classmates already left..

3 down, 1 more to go...

Do u know what is it that has always been misunderstood by people most of the time? That there's a fine line between putting ourselves in others' shoes and putting others in our shoes.. think abt it, what's often done is the latter one.. but ppl always claim themselves doing the former one.. and they actually end up guessing the reaction of others based on how they're going to react..

So, instead of "if I were to be him", it becomes "if he were to be me"… but they don't really realize it, do they? Of course sometimes it does happen that people do the same things as we think they would.. but very often they don't.. each of us has different attitudes towards problems.. I don't necessarily react to something in the same way u will react.. and I don't attack people in the same way some people usually do.. again, just another thought of mine u see..

Anyways, I'm done with my last paper this morning.. I must say I'm quite confident abt it.. =P so, things are pretty much getting lighter, 3 exams done, just 1 final project presentation left.. not so pressurizing even though it's quite big bcos we work with a Danish company.. but then an email from NUS swooped in my life hunting me, FYP (Final Year Project) list was out! I was completely clueless scrolling through hundreds of projects with alien terms.. I tried to narrow down my options by eliminating those from madness namely fluid mechanics, bioengineering, control and applied mechanics.. I'm pretty keen on the projects from manufacturing.. but material science and energy & bio-thermal will do too.. I'm confusing u, am I not? well.. bcos I myself am confused too.. wrong move and I'll be suffering for a year.. it's not funny, it's concerning in fact.. btw, enough abt school.. =P

Ela, my polish friend, said "I was so caught up with project within the last three days.. I need nature now.. nature, please.." and there we were.. biking in a forest area.. nothing beat the feeling of breathing fresh air of the nature.. the smell of flowers and greens was terrific.. we speeded up as fast as we could.. the fresh air and beautiful view were just great..

Have I told u, nothing is perfect, but the nature somehow is..

Emel and I went to Rosengårdscenteret, a shopping place at the other side of the city.. and to Bilka (sort of a huge supermarket) to buy some foods bcos emel wanted to cook Turkish dish.. we tried making a chocolate cake too.. =P (yea, I definitely gain weight).. well, I'll just let the pictures talk..

but forget abt the whole process, we're both busy so nobody took pictures..

The result..... =P

Turkish foods

If u ever wondered, this is my campus, Teknikum @ Syddansk Universitet

The main building of Syddansk Universitet

When one is bigger than ninety nine...

In this life, I suppose there'd be a time when we feel that we never know a man can be that happy, or vice versa.. when parents have their very first kid, most probably, they're at their happiest time ever.. the kind of happiness that's just beyond imagination.. but there'd also be a time when we think we never know that a man can be that sad, the kind of sadness that breaks our limit.. disappointment? Large-scale failures? A broken heart? U name it…

The unpredictable life is interesting.. yet at some points, depressing.. even an expected thing can bring us such kind of catastrophe we never expect to happen before.. perhaps we just don't realize the fact that as long as we breathe, we have hopes,.. and the thing is, even a tiny little hope is enough to bring us to our lowest.. and then, how if people say that u're too rational as a person? Even so, there's this small belief knows that there's no person who's fully rational..

We're just human.. we have imagination.. there are times when we could make the world appear better than what it is in reality by our own ways of looking at things.. and if it's easier to do it like that, why not? but sometimes, it's about this thing that we want so much it hurts.. it hurts solely bcos we know we can't have it.. and the saying that 'nothing is impossible' hurts us even further at a later stage.. it's a matter of that tiny little hope that lingers on.. when a 1% of hope is struggling to be bigger than the remaining 99%.. chances are, we're hurting ourselves..

So some say we better live for today.. the question is, who doesn't want? if only the thing that will happen tomorrow has nothing to do with what happens today, we would really love to live only for today.. why not? it's such a bliss to do that, in the sense that, it's healthy to put aside some things and delay the thoughts of them.. but the thing is, it's only when u know u will not live tomorrow that living only for today is making sense..

Just a small thought of mine.. =P

Anyways, here are the pictures of our pizza evening.. we tried to make some pans of pizza, but since the whole process would take quite a long time, instead of making the dough ourselves, we bought the ready-made ones..

The making process...

How the pizzas looked like after baked... and they're all tasty.. =)

Lastly, this is what happens when people play basketball and i don't.. =P

It's pretty obvious there are some luxuries that i'd never get to do during the exam period in nus.. hmmm.. actually it's bcos next exam is still far far away.. =P Ciaoo..

I felt like a kid again!

How was it like?? Damnnn good.. =P

Say thanks to a carpenter who lived in Denmark long time ago who began creating wooden toys and called them LEGO.. well, to cut the story short, we went to the largest and oldest Legoland in Billund, Denmark.. there were 50 of us, but we’re kinda separated.. So nic, emel and I walked ard by ourselves.. seriously, we’re very impressed with all the Lego buildings, statues, miniatures, etc.. beware! I’m gonna tell abt the trip in details.. (just so that i won't forget in the future =P)

There were many rides inside.. so we chose the scariest ones (the only rides that fit us) first, the “MINI BOATS”.. it doesn’t sound scary, i know.. emel insisted on riding it, I asked her to just borrow somebody’s kid.. but anyway, it took us passing beautiful monuments and towns built of LEGO bricks, including Kronborg Castle, the Statue of Liberty, Osaka and the Acropolis.

“Vikings River Splash”.. we’re sitting inside a large viking river raft and swept down the river.. at the time we’re hoisted up an 8-metre-high water elevator, Emel started to scream like hell, the kid in front of me started to pray.. and then we water-fell 8 metres.. imagine how the screaming sounded like.. we took this twice..

Then we took the “X-treme Racers”.. Emel (who’s always a hero at the beginning) insisted on sitting at the front so I sat there with her while Nic sat at the back.. she screamed bloody loud until one point she did cough a lot (anyways, she’s still alive now).. the ride took us speedily up, down and around in hair-raising twists and turns.. the second time we rode that, Nic and I asked her to just sit at the back and scream.. =P

This “Lego Canoe” brought us to LEGO animals like pumas, bears, rattlesnakes, etc… and then traveled up to three levels and finished with a plunge down a waterfall at full speed.. again, we got wet..

The “Pirate Boats” where we could finally sit a bit more elegantly bcos nothing scary happened.. we sailed into Captain Roger's secret cliff cave, where the pirates are partying and fighting for the stolen jewels and treasure..

“The Dragon”.. unimpressive (that’s what happened when things were overrated initially).. just a little twists and turns with the view of life behind the scenes within an enchanted King’s Castle..

Here’s the time when we started entering the wrong places, first we’re excited about this place “DIVE to the Atlantis”.. there’s even a sign written “BOARDING every 5 minutes”.. Emel thought we’d be taking submarine.. that’s actually almost impossible I thought.. then again, in this modern world, what’s impossible?? =P

And there we were, they put us inside a room with a big-ass screen and asked us to imagine ourselves how it felt to be in a submarine, the thing was, at this age, it’s extremely hard to be that imaginative.. but anyway, we continued to see the underwater world which was quite nice..

We got into a wrong queue to “Timber Ride” fyi, it was nic’s fault.. it’s just three rounds of nothing and nothing happened and it ended just like that... just.. like… that..

Lastly was the scariest one.. the “Power Builder”.. a robot to program the exact ride we wanted.. it took us up, down and around in all kinds of crazy ways.. and when I said crazy, it’s really crazy.. Nic and I chose the combination of turns according to the numbers we liked and we ended up swearing a lot of words.. Emel, who first wanted to take lower level decided to ride the robot alone.. but she then changed to LEVEL 4 when we provoked her that she’d be the most boring person in this world if she chose LEVEL 1.. the good thing was, she didn’t swear, the bad thing was, she screamed.. and it’s fuckin loud.. =P

..and these are some pictures that i took..

That was another good day.. =) I’m definitely gonna miss denmark when I leave.. and exams? 2 down, first time in my uni life that i've passed with such flying colors.. =P (did i tell u?that's bcos i like the education system here).. so, 2 more to go..

Ciao…

Extraordinary...

Some people are born with an extraordinary ability of driving u up the wall.. sometimes even until one point that u feel like stabbing them right on the spot =P.. and usually it happens when u meet a complainer.. and when I say a complainer, I really mean it.. basically, there was this guy (I've never seen any of his kind before, really) in my class who started to complain whenever we started a conversation.. the first time, on the staircase, I was unfortunate, I bumped into him.. he asked me sth and only god-knew-how he dragged me into his story about how he disliked staying in denmark.. and seriously, nothing from his mouth abt denmark was positive.. that was the first time.. from the way he bitched and all… it just gave me this unpleasant feeling..

So, it happened again and again I didn't even dare to look into his eyes whenever meeting him, sometimes I quickly took my phone out and played games (yea, it's that bad).. I was afraid he'd start dragging me into another complaining story-telling again.. but he always managed to do it (I told u they had a very special talent).. always starting from asking sth else.. and snap, u're actually listening to their complaints..

What's so irritating was that, this morning when I was so nervous waiting for my turn for the oral exam, he started to invite me into his story again.. I gave some hints by playing games.. or not answering at times.. he just didn't get it.. he's bitching abt the examiners of his English exam for being unable to understand his English.. and according to him, he's using American English (seriously people, It's not even close).. so it's all the examiners' faults according to him.. I nodded and smiled.. speechless…

Actually it's not only this guy in particular.. I don't know, but I think some people are just very good at driving u mad or filling u with anger.. they can do it with their words, or their strange behaviors, or sometimes by being very demanding, or with their so-called attention-seeking ways.. Not only that, they're even very good at maintaining their position in the chart of the list of people that u try to avoid.. sometimes they're even slowly climbing up from time to time.. sometimes they keep it stagnant, that is, only when u don't get to meet them.. or at times, they feel that they just want to get into that list and suddenly become so annoying..

Hmmm.. I just hope i've never done this to anybody, please forgive me and let's start over if I did.. Haha..

Quote of the day: "If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut." -- Albert Einstein